Depression pit

I’ve been hit with migraine attacks at a frequency of almost daily.  It’s hard to hold it together.  To continue on.  So many pills taken that hardly touch the pain.

Yesterday was the most painful migraine attack that I’ve had in a while.  Almost went to the ER.   Was basically bedridden for most of the day.

I feel so alone.  So lonely.  So sad.

Today wasn’t awful pain, but the postdrome felt like I was hit by a truck.

And the depression is weighing really heavily on me.

I wish I could be more positive.  I do love life, and I am trying to have a meaningful existence.  But this pain makes it so difficult to do anything.  And I don’t know why it happens.  And I don’t feel like I have anyone that is really there for me, to help me.  It SUCKS to feel like I am in this thing all by myself.  Stuck in this pit.

I just want someone to be here for me.  To help me when I can’t take care of myself.  To keep me from falling into the depression pit.

At least I have this blog.   You understand.

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3 responses

  1. I am here for you! I can give you my number if you want to message. Don’t want you to be alone. To give you some hope I was living like you was in constant daily pain. Never ending migraines. It’s taken me time but I am now done to one a month. So never stop fighting. I know it feels hopeless right now but don’t been too hard on yourself. You are doing amazing just going from one day to the next ❤️

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    1. Awww, you are so sweet!!! My e-mail address is kellyaliveblog@gmail.com. I would love to be your pen pal! I’m so glad you are doing better. I hope to be at that point sooner than later too. Once a month would be a dream come true. I will try to be nicer to myself this year. 🙂
      -Kelly

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      1. Fab Kelly, ill send you an email. It’s lovely to connect. Yes this year will be better. Small steps 🙂

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