Glimpse

Hello fellow blogging friends,

Isn’t it exhausting to be an unsolvable medical case?

Those changes I wrote about here?  It seemed like they were really helping for a couple weeks.  Then I was hit with an awful cold/sinus infection and it threw off my sleeping schedule and my eating habits.  😦

This last week has been discouraging.  Back to more bad days than good days.

The lifestyle changes must be stuck to, per my doctor’s orders, but it is exhausting.  It was so much easier to do when I was feeling better.  Now I have migraines and zero energy.

I feel pretty alone in my day-to-day life, struggling with all of this.  Everyone else can just eat what they want, do what they want, work where they want, and not have to deal with anything.  Nothing close to what I am dealing with.

*feeling discouraged over here*

It’s so sad to get a glimpse of a normal life, only to have it snatched away.

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11 responses

  1. Sorry you feel so sad. I still have phases of grieving for my able bodied, pain free life. Slowly accepting my new boundaries and trying to make the best of things. Sending you hugs.

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    1. That is exactly what it is: the 5 stages of grief. *hugs* Thank you so much for the comment. ❤
      -Kelly

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  2. Totally relate to this. Have you read the book ‘How to Be Sick’ by Toni Bernhard? Really helped me rehabilitate my expectations and adjust to my new limitations. Hope things feel positive for you soon x

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    1. Thank you so much, friend! I haven’t read that book but I have heard it mentioned several times in other blogs. Must be a sign… I should get it! I could use some good advice. Thanks for the suggestion! I hope things are going well for you, and happy Thanksgiving!

      -Kelly

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  3. Aww hun I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. It really does suck having to make permanent changes especially when feeling alone. I wouldn’t have been able to stick to the changes as long as you have, you’re very inspiring. Sending hugs xoxo

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    1. Thank you so much! *hugs!* Every day is such a roller-coaster. It’s especially hard to feel horrible again after feeling a little better. Thank you for the support and encouragement… it truly helps me! I hope you have a great Thanksgiving!

      -Kelly

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  4. Being a medical mystery is traumatic yet beautiful. Life is an nonstop battle of mind versus body. Sorry you’re down but hopefully it’ll swing upwards again soon.

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    1. Very well said! I am trying to live more in the present moment, especially when I am feeling better. I try not to worry so much about when the next bad pain wave will hit. I’m grateful for the moments I get when I feel better. I hope your holiday is a good one this week!

      -Kelly

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      1. I still struggle with not living in the moment. I don’t know if I’m wired differently or what, but I can’t seem to focus on the here and now.

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        1. Reading about mindfulness helped me a lot. The authors Jon Kabat-Zinn, Eckhart Tolle, and Michael A. Singer have all written really good books on the subject. Meditation also helped me, especially guided meditations, like the ones at this website: http://marc.ucla.edu/body.cfm?id=22. It can be so hard to calm my crazy busy mind… it definitely takes practice. 🙂

          -Kelly

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          1. Good to know. We just studied mindfulless in my social psych class, so I’ll have to look the book up. Thanks ☺

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